This All Better Be Worth It

I cannot believe in less than two weeks, eleven days to be exact, my life as I know it will no longer be the same.  WOW!  That just really hit me.

Things are just a bit nutty right now.  My procrastination has caught up with me, and I've got a billion things left to do for the wedding.  During the day, I'm busy with JCPenney 2006 planning so I have no time to think about the wedding.  However, I'm constantly worried about both things that I'm doing neither one of them well.  In the advertising world, "planning season" is literally THE busiest time of the year.  (I think only Tanya & maybe Alice can truly understand what I'm going through at work.)  Today was an ok day.  Last week I felt like I was suffocating.

The biggest cause my wedding stress is the fact that I'm here in Chicago, and the wedding is taking place in Dallas.  I'm not there to "visualize" things.  Even if I delegate things to people, it's really hard to describe to them my ideas and vision.  Also, what was I thinking having the ceremony outdoors????  It's causing me twice the amount of headache.  Things that are normally "provided for" in a church I have to find on my own and make it work in an outdoor setting.  For instance, we have to rent every single piece of sound equipment needed (I have no idea what is needed), and we need to find someone to administer the sound equipment...

On the flipside, it's been really sweet learning that I am truly blessed by some GREAT friends.  I REALLY TRULY LOVE THEM.  They have been tirelessly helping me, putting up with my procrastinating ways and praying for my sanity.  It's like a little oasis (no pun intended) in my desolation.  It brings me comfort knowing that they're taking care of things.  I love them...but I feel a lot of guilt because all of their lives are busy as well.  They've got much more important things than to run my little wedding errands for me. 

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Wyndham Anatole just called, the new carpet for the Wedgwood room is not going to be delivered until the day before the wedding because it got held up in customs.  Ok.  I'm really upset with them.  The wedding coordinator there has been really difficult to work with...complete with a bi-polar personality.  When I booked the room, she PROMISED that the renovation will all be done by 10/15.  Why is she now calling me to tell me the carpet is not here???  What if I don't want to move the wedding to the Coronado Ballroom because the foyer area sucks??  ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  This is really pissing me off!!

I'm so tired.  So stressed.  I haven't slept.  My family don't have hotels or cars booked.  I can't get to the pictures to give to Kelvin for the slideshow.  I have no wedding programs.  I have no shoes for the chi pao.  I have no music to walk down the aisle to.  I have so much work (at work) to do. I feel like crying...